My Great Grandma's 114 Birthday is today. I shared this picture and was told; I look a lot like her which was very humbling. Edith Opal Rankin Goodwin was a homesteader, Mom to eight, Grandma, Great Grandma, Great Great Grandma and loved by her community in South Dakota. Her little green house, tiny yard and garden and barn full of chickens, peacocks and other birds, little dining room table. the picture of the shepherd dog and baby lamb and chocolate chip cookies in the ice cream bucket was the embodiment of her. Humble strength found in the deep roots of a committed heart and soul. She committed to stay in the land her and her family came to by covered wagon. She stayed in the values her family lived by. She stayed in her marriage to a imperfect man, in her little house during the depression raising eight children by the skin of her teeth. When her twins were killed in a drunk driving accident and her children were dispersed like milk weed seeds she stayed. When her loneli
I lost a job from my dream company. A company I had followed all of my adult life. To take this position, I had to resign from my contract coaching work with teams of people doing amazing work. It was a sudden and soul shattering experience. And yet, this shakedown had been coming for years. My typical response to pain and shame is to fight back or completely freeze and I circled between these two responses for months. Mostly, I pulled the curtains and ignored phone calls, emails and people. Feeling weak and wimpy is the worst feeling for me and I will do whatever it takes to avoid this sense of helplessness. My typical Operating Procedure is to get to work or at least get really really busy. Focus on the work that needs done and the pain in the world instead of the pain in me. Self-care which is a popular term in education and social work annoyed me BEYOND measure. For someone like me who grew up in the culture I did and with the past experiences I had.... this did not work f