HEART'S CRY

This is how I feel.   I've let go and am attempting to grab hold. Anxiety fills my heart with discomfort and uncertainty. I've left the comfort, security and support of a job to the arms of the uncertainty of my dream. Will I make it? Who knows!   At this point, really hard decisions have to be made to keep us and our boys afloat. Trust has to take root and grow.   Faith is tested and my fear of not being provided for is glaring me right in the face. "We are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed!"  It is time to press in to what God has for us.   For our family.   For our church. It is time to make a change. To swing through the air.

Oh Daughter, How I long for you to come to me, and rest your head on me. I call you and you come, only to dart off again.   Nothing will harm you in my presence. I will protect you. I will never stop loving you. Keep moving forward. I know your name. I know your calling, for it was ME who called your name. I called you while you were hiding in the bog of insecurity and self-hatred. I called you from the valley of the shadow of death. I know your weaknesses, challenges and mistakes. I know your shame. Keep moving forward. I also know the depth of your love, burden and feelings of others. I know your courage to stand. Daughter, BE who I have made you to be...not who others think or want you to be. Be Bold and Courageous. Be Fearless. Be Tenacious. Be A Warrior. Never let up or let go or back down. Push Against and Lean In Don't look back Keep Moving Forward Oh, Daughter, come with me. It's my yoke. My burden is lig...

Heart's Cry Day Two of Basics  Charlene Johnson says we need to determine priories.  Priorities to us individually.   http://push.kajabi.com   She makes an amazing statement in this lesson, when she discusses how to score and set priorities based on what is important to us. She discusses intrinsic priorities as a place where we do not need accountability and the priority of what is most important to me.   For me, my intrinsic priority is work! Work is jus part of of my being.  It is naturally who I am.  I see things that need done and want to do it. The second priority is the Key Priority.  The one needing attention and priority. "Your key priority changes when your life changes. Area of life out of balance." Chalene Johnson. It is important to me, to look at priorities in light of how I believe God has gifted and called me to be.   What is the most important aspect of my life?   How do I want to ...

I have an accountability group which hasn't been very accountable lately, and it shows in my life.  Revisiting our push goals or our touch points or our stabilizers or back to basics is a must!   Whatever IT is called, it has to be about focusing on first things first.   In four months, 2014 will close.  What is done today, tomorrow and for the next 30, 60, 90 and 120 days matters.  It matters in my life and in the lives of those I'm called to serve. What is most important in our lives?  In my life?  In your life?  Taking time to revisit those dreams, God conceived desires and the hope we have.  To re-focus.  My mind goes back to the milking stool in our red barn when I grew up.  I am looking for a replica or begging someone to make it for me.  It looked kind of like this.  It had to be flexible.  "Dark" was known to kick and the stool had to be able to be picked up in a m...

This is what I do.  Look for things to do.  Or not look for things to do.   Even if I'm not looking, it finds me. July 31st was the last day of my contract for a position I've held for 12 years.  I loved my job!  It is just time for something new...or for something old... or, nothing. My very big problem is I immediately take on new things, spread myself out and let decisions for my life be made for me. I cannot do this anymore. So my commitment to myself is to NOT TAKE A POSITION of any kind for one month. The pressure will be great as we will need the money.  People are already asking what I'm doing next.  My husband is worried.   I am unsure if I'm courageous enough to say no and to stay still. I truly believe God told me to resign and I fully believe He has a job for me to do for now. What? Be available to my boys and enjoy their moments fully! Focus on relationships. Finish up a plethora of proje...

Forgive me as I process camp through this conversation with you. Some have told me, "I can't help at camp.  I'm not a kid person.  I don't know what to do." One of these is my husband who claims he is not a kid person.   However, what I do know about him will make him excellent at camp. He is an unassuming person.   Being the center of attention is just not who he is.   And yet, I watched him at the sound booth.  One of our little campers struggled with the loud noises and would become very overstimulated and stressed out....until he sat by my husband. Quietly, this little guy began to share with him.  "I hate loud noises," he said.  My husband smiled and said, "me too!!!!"   "Sometimes, I just want to cover up with a blanket and hide," the little camper said.  "Me too," my husband said.  He continued, "that's why I love the sound booth.  I can be part of everything, be doing some...

Our first Royal Family Kids Camp ended on July 25th.  This week has been spent processing, sorting, washing clothes and bedding.   And...crying and praying. Royal Family Kids, is an international ministry focused on establishing camps across the nation and the world for children who have been or who are in foster care.  (More information found at: royalfamilykids.org ) An amazing team of thoughtful people from various walks of life, churches and ages came together to pray, raise money, volunteers and share a vision for our area.   We want children to know they are loved and adored by God and treasured by us. Four of us went to Director's training and after months of planning and preparing...... camp came. Twenty one children excitedly hopped on the bus and asked twenty two gazillion questions as we drove. What are we going to do?  Who will be there?  What will we eat?  Where?  When?  Bright eyes....