HEART'S CRY

Have you ever asked yourself this question?  Sincerely? Oh I've asked in the, "what in the world were you thinking?" accusatory tone of voice way. If so much of our lives are wrapped around the question of "what are we doing here," wouldn't it seem important to find out why? Everything I wrestle and struggle with right now in my life can be linked to my desire to not be a waste of God's time.  To make a difference in the world while I can.  I have a deep desire to create value and worth.  Sometimes this desire turns to drive, which usually ends up in a crash. Tony Stolzfus said recently in a webinar, "Just ask Jesus." So, I did. My conversation went like this: "Why did you create me?" God, "To love you." (Long pause.  Not sure if I'm hearing right.) "Not the answer I am looking for God.  There has to be more then that.  You love me, but why did you create me?" God.  "To love you....

I just finished the Divergent series while recuperating from surgery.  Reading Veronica Roth's Divergent, Insurgency and Allegiant while reading Carol Dweck's  "Mindset" at the same time is a trip!   In one of the final chapters of Allegiant, Peter has decided to take the vile of memory serum to "reset" himself.  Tobias tells him, "You could just do the work, you know," I say. "You could make better decisions, make a better life."  Then he says, "I know change is difficult, and comes slowly, and that it is the work of many days strung together in a long line until the origin of them is forgotten.  He is afraid that he will not be able to put in that work, that he will squander those days, and they will leave him worse off than he is now.  And I understand that feeling-I understand being afraid of yourself." (Veronica Roth, 2013 Katherine Tegen Books) It would be easier.  To take a vial of serum and start again.  No sh...

Hurt, human nature and twisted relationships can warp our perception of love.   As if walking in to a carnival house of mirrors.   We see ourselves not as we are, but as we want to be seen.   Manipulating, turning and twisting perception to force it to fit our perspective.  Love becomes something to earn, buy or control.   In an attempt to "make" others love or to "make" others know how much we love them, we molest love with an intent to control and completely lose its true meaning.   Freedom. Release.   Letting go of outcomes.  Without fear, punishment, control and possession. Freeing ourselves and others from our warped expectations, frees us to love. May you and I freely love today! "Love does not claim possession, but gives freedom." Rabindranath Tagore   There is no fear in love. But perfect love  drives out fear,  because fear has to do  with punishment. The one who...