HEART'S CRY

Rest gives perspective.  Waiting brings hope. God assures us, His burdens are light.  Then why at times, do mine feel overpowering? For me, it is because I do not take them as they come. I push on.  In my own strength.  My own way. Driven by defenses and my own stubborn pride.   God's love and in His great mercy and grace, let's me try on my own. Until, I crash against the accumulation of burdens I've built up.  Losses, hurt, pain, grieving, lack of self-care and responsibility.   Boulders of shame and guilt and feelings of having to prove something on my own.   One giant stockpile.   The natural waves and ebs and flows of life are backed up and blocked.  Finally, with the weight of the world, I crash.  Collapsed on the shore of humility.   And, God is there.  His hand on my forehead and He gently says, "Stay."   "All things have been handed over to Me by My   Father; and  no one kn...

Its as if I can stand on a hill Watching depression roll in Oppression, like a cold front, leaving it's chill The battle is about to begin The dark clouds roll across my mind The heaviness suffocates me As if my entire being is being confined Fighting to break free As grain crushed in an old steel mill Flattened metal on a blacksmith's anvil Consuming darkness threatening my will My spirit thin and time stands still I thrash about as someone drowning Kicking, screaming, finally still Only my heart is steadily pounding Completely surrendered, I give up my will I relax in to the feeling of  complete abandon Hopelessness turns to submission Tomorrow is a time I can't imagine Emptied of all ambition The healing of surrender  Restful stillness Feelings still extremely tender Staying in the fulfillment of forgiveness Released from a prison of shame I am completely set free By my God who kn...