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Walking Back From my Dream To Get There


As you can tell, I'm in that stage of life.

You know the one.  Transition...AGAIN.  With transition comes reflection and contemplation and dreaming.  O.k. nevermind....this is just life and it is a transition from birth to death!

Since we are only human and can only see and know in part we struggle and need a constant reality check.  This is mine regarding the dreams of my heart.
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Working Through a dream

Dreams are not simple objects to tie down into concrete, well defined boxes.
Dreams are not static.

A dream is rather a kaleidoscope of dynamic growing, moving and changing pieces.
Branches reaching continually to the sky and roots intertwining through the ground.
Bumping up against life and reality or a hard spot in the ground...they flex around it and continue reaching for the sky.

Right now I’m in the disequilibrium that only growth can bring.

Planting diverse crops.
Growing
Bending
Prioritizing
Pruning.
Reflecting.

A wild attempt to push through the today’s to dos while moving forward into tomorrow's dream.

And so I Begin with the end in mind…

I walk back from my dream in order to get there.

Death is the ultimate ending.
The final goal. 
An eternal rest, hope and reward.

I will know I have arrived when I meet Jesus face to face.

And yet...
How would I live today with the picture of seeing Jesus firmly planted within my mind’s eye? 
How little the mundane and routine pieces of my life’s puzzle seem in light of His glory.

And yet- here I am…in today
My family and my calling and my work

I am placed on earth until my death to Be.
To be in relationship with God and others.
To be moving closer to that which I want.
To seek.
To provide for my family as I am called to do. 
To leave behind a legacy.  Compost for my children to plant and grow in.

Work is for my family.
So I can see them doing what God has called them to do.
So I can see them and visit them and laugh and build memories with them

But work is also doing
Paying the dues of today
Questions for Today as I journey back from my dream.
How do I do what I dream of doing when the bills roll through like a giant snowball sucking up every resource and ounce of energy?

Who do I trust in to get to the dream?

If it is God’s calling and dream He planted within me then how do I surrender and let go to Him?

What is for now?  What will I wish my future me in 10 years told my now me?

My kids will be 32,30 and 26 in 10 years.  My husband will be 58 and I will be 53.  I will have daughter in laws and Grand children.  My parents will be old and my sisters that much further away. 

What will I have then from what I do/who I am today?

The sowing into my health, relationships and learning.

Only then can I harvest a dream.


I need to plant health spiritually, physically, relationally and financially and mentally.
I need to invest in open and loving relationships
I need to pursue and chase wisdom.

However, I cannot do it all.  Finish my license and begin my Graduate program.  Reach my neighbors and the world.  Love and be present to my family and my church...

 and be chasing a dream.

My Dream is Today.

To be present.  To walk.  To learn.  To grow.  To plant.

To think of Jesus walking unhurriedly from place to place.  Healing a woman, listening, feeding the crowds and disciplining the followers.   All from a whole heart.

Lord help me live my Dream today!



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