For years...21 to be exact-my entire world has revolved around my family. Whatever else that might have been in life has taken second place. From the moment I found out I was carrying my oldest until this moment where I have one soundly out of the nest; one jumping off and one getting close..they have been my whole world.
So this morning my husband preaches on Philipians 3:7-11 on "Counting it all Loss" in order to really KNOW God. He made a comment about giving up everything that has any value to us in this life...our identity and giving that up. He made the comment that it is not what is in our pocket that God wants but who we are.
What??? Being a Mom is who I am! How does this relate to giving it up. "What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish-that I may gain Christ and be found in Him."
No- he's not saying to count our children as rubbish. They are and always will be our world. But it struck me...as this mother who is struggling with who I am without being the constant mama... that my identity has to be in Christ.
I know that...in my head. I believe that in theory... but do I practice it? As much as I tell myself that it is not my business and as much as I remind myself to let go...am I? Do I?
When I'm fretting and stewing about one of my boys, is it in a spirit of releasing them to God-of praying for them-of standing by them or is it still because my identity is wrapped up in them?
Maybe this whole identity crisis is a good thing!
So true yet so hard!
ReplyDeleteVery hard... Thanks for joining me!
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