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I've missed my Heart's Cry community and the peace that writing brings in to my life.  

Second guesses and doubts were filling my mind.  "Why in the world are you writing?"  "Who wants to read your badly written rambling?"  Does this ever happen to you in any area of your life?  An activity brings joy and yet our reflection goes instantly back to results or production.  That constant battle between doing and being rages on within my heart.

Do we see so many simultaneous journeys on this path that we walk or can we walk with a whole heart?  Integrated and whole?  With one purpose?  Our interests are diverse and our goals many and yet it is all one journey.  Where have we been?  Where are we going?  Most importantly who are we walking with?

My friend said to go without expectations on this current trip I'm on to build some connections with my son.  An echo of a wise Pastor who told this young family the same thing years ago.  When arbitrary expectations are put on people around us then we tend to feel we have to hold on to the strings.  

Unconditional love is letting go of the outcome.

Letting go of the outcome in all areas of my life is my Heart's Cry.  To walk with intentionality, purpose and boundaries without worry of the results.  If I do now what I need to do...that is all I need to ask of myself.


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