Vulnerability in Growth

Unsettled and vulnerable. Yep, that about sums it all up.

I've been riddled with doubt and insecurity lately. Usually that surfaces as worry for money, worry for family and worry for my future.

My usual "go to" seems to be sabatoge. You know the kind. Eating too much. Procrastinating toooo much. I am a pro at tripping myself up.

What is going on?

A friend sent me an email from "Walk the Talk Company," that she is subscribed to. This author describes growth within the picture of a tree. And if you know me at, the tree is my symbol of what I hope to be.

Growth is vulnerability. It is stretching, restructuring, pinching, pruning and painful. Her email helped me in several ways:

1. I'm not alone. God knows.
2. It's a good thing.
3. I need to suck it up...and GROW!

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