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Side Note: If I Knew Then What I Know Now


It is difficult to accept that I am now an "older" and "wiser" Mom.   O.k. ...  just older.

In Early Intervention I have the opportunity to spend time with the most amazing families, kids and professionals.  I am blessed beyond measure to be in the field that I am in.

When a new family receives the news that their child has some hurdles to overcome...I want to wrap my arms around them and simply tell them this:

If I knew then what I know now...I would simply enjoy every second.
I wouldn't fret and stew so much over dumb things like toys and clothes on the floor.
I would spend more time playing and less time fixing.
I would spend much less time telling them what to do and much more time simply be part of what they are doing.

If I knew then what I know now...
I wouldn't push so hard.
I would listen more and tell less.
I would ask more questions about the moon and the animals and their stories.
I would sit on the floor and turn off the distractions.

If I knew then what I know now...I would know that I will always worry for my boys.
I would know that I don't have to get it all done and have it all right within 18 years.
I would know that I have a lifetime ahead of me to carry my boys within my heart.
That it will never be easy or perfect or easy.
That struggle is part of life.  
That they are much much stronger then it seems.

Just a few thoughts from a "growing older" Mama knowing that in a few more years, I'll have more to add to "what I know now that I wish I knew then."

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