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Enjoying The Process in The Journey


The year 2013 continues at full speed ahead.  This journey of becoming more healthy seems to be trudging up a very steep and curvey hill!

Some of us get stuck and begin to think that our situation is out of our control and yet we continue to spin our wheels.  Some give up and roll over.  Many pretend that we are enjoying the stuck spot and others dig deeper holes.

Me?  I've tried all of the above!  Many times!

What a complex step it is to begin a new journey.  In fact, it can seem like a complicated a paradox.

Surrender and take responsibility of your life.

Be Still and Work Hard!

Accept without denial and never say die.

January 2013 found me deciding to meet with an accountability group for the purpose of accepting, vulnerability, surrender and being transparent while at the same time regrouping, setting goals and redefining my life.

As any good gardener knows-growth also takes death and pruning.  Compost and planting.

Beginning and continuing are both challenges in a new journey.

However, I think that stopping along the way to count one's blessings and celebrate the successes.  To accept kudos and to enjoy the progress.

My kidneys were not doing well and my body was screaming for help for so long.  My typical MO was not working....run faster and work harder and ignore my needs.   I'm the girl you want to have if you want a person of action.  And yet, taking action on my own behalf felt very selfish.

Three months later and the support of friends and family...my labs were recently GREAT!   Oh let me tell you that my first response is to tell you all that is wrong and what I should have or should be doing.  I have a looonnnng ways to go. 

I begin to pick up that bag of guilt and shame....
And throw on the back pack of fear of failure...

That has to be let go of.  Today, I stand and smile and take the time to Praise God for His mercy and His grace and the success that He is allowing me. 


Little steps toward taking responsibility of myself and letting go of everything else.  Accepting what is. 


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