Skip to main content

The Weaning Process Continues


The weaning process continues...for Moms and Dads everywhere.   

I bumped into friends at the grocery stores who were in the process of steeling themselves and saying good bye to their young adult kids as I am.

My thoughts took me back to the ranch where cows stood crying along fence-lines as their babies were weaned from them.  These giant mamas walked a rut into the hard pasture beside the fence as by pacing back and forth; wide mouths with lolling tongues calling worriedly for their babies.   Tuffs of white, black or red fur dotted the barbs on the wire where they had rubbed.

The sound of the worried Moms always got to me.  That sound of desperation in their horse voices broke my heart.

I get it now.

Tomorrow, I take my oldest to the airport where he will get on a plane and fly away.  I won't see him for a long long time.  While my feet will stay planted on the ground, my heart will desperately want to catch and hold him.  

Two weeks later, I will stand at the door and watch my middle son leave for college.  

I'll pace the perimeter and I'll cry in desperation whispered prayers late at night.

They are growing up and they are leaving to become the men that God wants them to be and I try to release them to Him to care for a protect but it is excruciating.

  I feel like those cows leaving tuffs of my heart along the fence. 

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Starting a Journey

September 3, 2010 Originally posted How to Begin a Journey 1. Pick a destination or simply start. 2. Plan a detailed itinerary or just take the first step. 3. Pack everything or travel lightly. I am choosing to just begin. To leave behind the baggage, pick up a day pack, and go. Several nights before we moved to Ogallala, I was praying about the transition when I heard that still, small voice of God. In that moment, I knew He heard my Heart's Cry. He hears every whispered plea, every unspoken longing. If I truly sit with that truth, it humbles me. What courage, boldness, passion, and decisiveness I have when I remember: He never leaves or forsakes me. He provides for my every need according to His riches in glory. My hope is to encourage you He hears your Heart's Cry too.
2 comments
Read more

1940 Canned Apple Butter: Family Root Cellar

I loved exploration as a child.  From opening the door and going down the stairs to get something from my Grandma's root cellar or exploring old homesteads while checking cows.  I credit my Mom with teaching us to appreciate those things that represented the people who had gone before us. When I moved with my husband and boys to a house on the family ranch-I began exploring immediately.  This was the house my Aunt and Uncle lived in during my childhood.  My Grandparents had lived there and many other families dating back to 1900 when it was built.   With two little boys in tow, I made my way to the root cellar and found a treasure cove.  Old text books belonging to the original family who had been a teacher, the original medicine cupboard, tools, trash and memorabilia.   I felt like an archeologist sifting through layers of debris representing generations and culture.  And I was.  I hauled truckloads of trash to the dump (some...
4 comments
Read more

Diabetes-Opened to Disease OR Open to Connecting to my Strengths

I've tried living in denial for two years after the big D diagnoses was handed over.  Honestly, I just don't want to talk about it.  Outwardly seemly calm and disconnected from it.  Inwardly terrified. As a plant that is stressed is open to disease, injury and death so to our bodies are.  I opened myself up to this.  Stress, lack of sleep, bad nutrition, overweight and lack of exercise.  For some reason I believed that if I ran fast enough and worked hard enough, I would outrun my family genes.  The tiny room in the back of my brain locked with a key has kept the fear of this disease at bay even though I could hear its screaming when life quieted down. My Aunt died piece by piece to this disease.  First a heart attack and quadruple by-pass.  Then a toe.  Next a foot.  Legs came next along with more heart attacks.  Kidneys shutting down.  She died very young. When I was little, my Aunt Ally gave herself s...
4 comments
Read more